Blog 2: What does Benedick think of Beatrice???

I believe that Benedick is a confused human mind which is experimenting fear to rejection and a person trying to avoid what he believes it is not possible; being rejected by Beatrice. Apparently, Benedick is irresistible to women which seems to have affected his personality as much as the fact that he is coming proudly from war creating a selfish, overconfident person who would go even against of the person he loves only to protect and preserve his status and respect among his friends who perceive him as the supreme reflection of the machismo concept which seems to rule that era. However he is not a bad person I believe he is confused as he does not want to give up his proud to love. He is just protecting his ego by blocking his attraction for Beatrice which psychologically is a normal protective response to a possible self esteem break down which he knows could be devastating as unconsciously he is already in love with Beatrice; he wants Beatrice to be the one who give up her proud so that he can get the girl while preserving his reputation. In mi opinion he just acts like a fox that pretends not to want the grapes just because the tree seems to be too high.

Before leaving to war I will be leaving soon and I don't know how I feel about her, should I still care for her or should I just forget her and if she crosses my path I ignore her or just act rude, I feel confused and I don't know how she will feel if I lose my life during this war and she probably never know how I feel about her, will she might hate me because he would think I don't love her or even feel anything towards her, but then if I act like I don't care, I will only be lying to myself but then I don't look like a love sick puppy to my friends or people around me. I don't know what to do and I wonder if she feels the same. I hope I live through this war and be able to find out the truth

Diary on evening of Act One after “Skirmish of Wit’’Oh what a piece of work is a woman she doesn’t know how to respect an honorable man who has just arrived from war with victory on his hand. Has she always been like that, with all the people alike or it’s only me that she is so rough with? Is there anything wrong with my personality, or attire? Perhaps I should not have bounce back her harsh words with referring her “Disdain”. But she really is disdain. May be I should have avoid to come across her. Oh Lord why I came across her. I am admired by all beautiful damsel of Messina expect her. And there falls another victim of Cupid- my dear comrade Claudio. Now he sees nothing expect Hero. Is not Hero better than Beatrice? But she is not my type; too shy, gentle and sophisticated to deal with.